Friday, October 24, 2014

Week 3 at DTS

The topic was "Being a Godly Rebel". This may not seem directly related to that thought but it was one topic that the speaker touched on.

Philippians 2:5-7 Have this mind among yourselves, which is yours in Christ Jesus, who, though he was in the form of God, did not count equality with God a thing to be grasped, but emptied himself, by taking the form of a servant

This is my Jesus.
He is One that walks in humility. He walks in servant-hood.

How can I think of myself as more? He is God but never used His equality with God to attain status or held it over others.

John 13:3-5 Jesus, knowing that the Father had given all things into his hands, and that he had come from God and was going back to God, rose from supper. He laid aside his outer garments, and taking a towel, tied it around his waist. Then he poured water into a basin and began to wash the disciples' feet and to wipe them with the towel that was wrapped around him.

He humbled Himself so low as to wash the feet of those He led. What is leadership then without servantship? If the Creator humbled Himself to serve, then how can I see myself as “above” anything? I am not above cleaning. I am not above serving. I am not above siblings or others. I am equal but must not see equality as a cop out. Rather, I must bring myself to a place of humility.

C. S. Lewis defines humility in this way, “True humility isn’t thinking less of yourself; it is thinking of yourself less”. You are God’s precious creation. Nothing can take away from that fact. Never let humility drive you to self-hatred or loathing. He is the God Who finds pleasure in service and we should learn to be likewise. Our purpose is not to “be good”, “do good”, or even strain to be either of those. Our purpose is to glorify the Father, to worship Him forever. The more I learn about Him, the more I praise Him, the more I long to walk in His ways and to follow after what He desires and has for me.

Paul, many times in Scripture, refers to Himself as “chief sinner” or the “least”. He understood humility. He didn’t say that he was the least so he wasn’t fit for ministry. He never said that being the least held him back from living for Christ in any way. His view of himself, rather, spurred him on in ministry. He was eager to serve his fellow brothers and sisters in Christ. He served whole-heartedly.

The Lord is looking for those whose lives are laid out before Him. Lives of ones who will follow His example of servanthood. My life’s desire is to be found humbled and waiting. My life’s cry is, “here I am, use me”!

Wednesday, October 22, 2014

Prayer Requests

So a few different people have asked what they can be praying about. So here is a little list...

1. Outreach! The first 3 months of DTS are spent learning in a classroom setting and the other 3 are spent abroad in the 10/40 window (google it) applying and teaching what we have learned. Due to security I cannot tell you my exact location online. But please be praying for the people in the area I will be going to.

2. Please be praying for my outreach team as we prepare. That we would soak up all that we can here and apply well once overseas. Also that we would be unified and loving towards one another.

3. I am learning SO much here. Please be praying that I am able to let the knowledge sink in all the way from my mind to my heart.

4. My roommates are the best. There are 8 girls in my room (including myself). Please be praying for each of them and their different outreach locations, that they would be learning lots, and that we would continue to grow closer and hold each other accountable to the things that we say and do.

5. We have some fabulous leaders here. Please be praying for energy, perseverance, and that they would be open to all that the Lord is teaching them as well.

6. The school as a whole. That we would represent well the Body of Christ, unified, humble, and serving one another.

7. Visas. This is a semi-broad thing. We have a few internationals in the school who need to have their visas stay in place, others that may need them for their specific countries, and some U.S. citizens that need new passports. Pray that all of that would run smoothly.

8. Against any sickness. Colds spread like wildfire here since so many people share rooms, are in class, and are together all the time.

9. Peace about all that is going on here. Peace about what we learn. Peace about outreach. Just peace all the way around.

10. And finally, that each person would continue to be molded more after Christ. That we would desire to become more like Him each and every day.

Thursday, October 16, 2014

Week 2 at DTS

Week 2 Topic- Recognizing God's Voice

This week the Lord really revealed many lies about life, myself, others, etc. that I had believed. This was the sermon that I wrote...

One of the hardest things for me when it comes to recognizing God’s voice, is pushing out the lies. The lies about who I am, the lies about Who God is, and the lies about His desire for me. My flesh wants God to be only mildly close. My flesh wants Him to only kind of love me. Because that is what I know, that is what I accept, that is what makes me most comfortable because that only requires the same from me.

I was asked not that long ago to really examine what labels are on me. Who does my family think I am? Who do my friends think I am? Who do I think I am? And the lies flooded. Your friends don’t went you around, they don’t want to be with you. You annoy your family, they don’t want to talk to/spend time with you. You don’t have worth. You don’t really matter.

What? Is that who I am? Does God think of me that way too? If I don’t think of myself as worthwhile then how could He?

Then I was asked, who does God say that you are? um…

And I prayed, and I listened, and after all those other things ran through my mind I heard.

You are My Daughter of worth.
You are Beautiful out of ash.
You are a powerful Overcomer.

But I’m still struggling! I give you power.
But what about what other people have told me. You are Beautiful.
But I thought I was worthless. Oh, My beautiful Daughter of worth.

Is this really how you see me God? I can’t even come to believe it. How do I know that this is how You actually see me? What about all those other things?

John 8:44- [The devil] does not stand in the truth because there is no truth in him. Whenever he speaks a lie, he speaks from his own nature, for he is a liar and the father of lies.


Psalm 103:12- as far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed our transgressions from us.

Colossians 1:13-14- For He rescued us from the domain of darkness, and transferred us to the kingdom of His beloved Son, in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins.

My story is a story of redemption. I am not one caught in the middle. I am not one of indifference. I am not caught somewhere between sin and worth. I am all that He says I am. I am ALL that He says that I am. And when it comes to listening for His voice, listen for the one that pushes back the lies. Because when He speaks, mountains crumble, seas give way, and my callous heart melts all over again. His every word is truth. He never speaks a lie. He never brings shame. He convicts of wrongs, but He never brings guilt. His voice calls me to greater things rather than condemning me for the times that I fall short. He is guiding along a path of learning to trust, in Him and in His voice. The voice that speaks truth and the voice that speaks life. My chain falls off at the touch of His hand and the breath from His lungs. My God is the God of redemption and life and His words affirm His identity and mine.

Friday, October 10, 2014

Week 1 at DTS

Our first week we studied the "Character and Nature of God". It was a great week and we learned a lot. As part of our school we are required to write 5(ish) minute "messages" each week on what we learned. Each week about 5 people are chosen at random to share their message. This week I escaped without being chosen! haha But anyways being myself instead of writing a message I wrote a poem/spoken word. So without further ado.... Here it is.

All-Powerful mighty God living on high
not concerned with what He made
Not even desiring for all to be saved
This god in our heads must be remade
For our simple minds simply can not contain
The idea of a Father’s love
No my futile mind can not sustain

That He imparted mercy and forgave

The mocking voice that cursed His very Name

He is more than the God of wrath that we have always portrayed

He is personal

Personally, I can attest
to His unending love and faithfulness

This love is more than surface level

Deeper than the ocean depths
Sacrificing, Longing, Seeking, Pursuing

After this broken mess
In His faithful arms, I can rest
Knowing that His plans for me are the absolute best

Though still a long way off He saw
Stuck by the shame of not attaining the law
In the midst of the pain brought by sin

And even then

He ran to me,
He kissed me,
and He brought me in
He wasn’t ashamed of all the things I had been

Not reluctant to call me His own
With open arms he welcomed me home

He is merciful
Fully, I can proclaim
that He is compassionate and kind
In my own lies and guilt I bind
Myself to a cross
But as I make my shame-filled walk

I am stopped by a man and am filled with shock
As He proceeds to take my lot
He, Himself bore my sin and my shame
my name carved into the tree
because that tree was meant for me

In the act I was caught
To the middle of town I was brought
This was the moment I had always feared
My sin had now been revealed
And not a single soul could save me now
Then His frame came into view
And He bent down in the sand and drew

In that moment I knew
Every stone fell to the ground
And His voice spoke the most pleasing sound
“Darling, where are your accusers now?”

He transcends time
Alpha and Omega, Beginning and End

Throughout time He has been

Weaving a Tapestry of Christ

And my every sin

He can mend

Because He is the First and the Last

He holds both the future and the past

He pursues when I run

I am the prodigal son

He washed my stains when I couldn’t

I am the adulterous woman
And together we will run this race

And tell His story, a story of grace
We will run with reckless abandonment

Because He is merciful and compassionate

All-Loving Merciful God abiding within me
Caring deeply for what You have made
Hoping all things and running to our aid
Looking for a life that has been laid
out at Your feet,  so that You may invade
So submit your plans to the Lord,
your destiny is tied to Jesus

not your desires.